moved on

You are long gone out of my mind now, I don’t even care.

I never look for you anymore, you are no longer in my dreams.

It is very clear to me, you mean nothing anymore. Just a distant memory of a man I once loved. You are really truly dead to me.

This is my new life and there’s no room for you. For the first time in a long time I am truly happy.

I am me.

my valentines day sonnet

I am afraid, I am afraid of you, I am afraid of you and her. I hide behind my mask of happiness and prosperity but it is all a lie. I’m trying to make you believe that I am alright.

And although I know I did the right thing , I’m lying through my teeth that I am through. Cause I’m not, I’m still standing here lost and confused.

I am just a sad little girl, closing my eyes trying to think of things that bring me closer to you. You’re just a memory now, faded and foggy.

I wish I could clear the fog but I know that to do that would be a stab straight to my heart.

Because you have moved on and are far gone, far gone, so gone. I wish I were gone.

I wish I could wake up to a brand new day, a day without your memory, a day that’s all my own.

shots from denton

this is for you

Revelation

Those words I spoke to you
that one cold teary night
repeat sounlessly in my head
they just dont seem true anymore
now they're just words from a time long ago
lyrics at the end of your songs

I loved you and wanted to save you
you meant the world to me
I've hated you and resented you
for so long now
for all the changes and things you made me do
I believed you.

But now with time I have opened my eyes
I've moved on and started again
however I still hate you.

Today I woke up and my thoughts turned to you
and my heart and mind were filled anew
and in that moment I realized

that I forgive you.